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I have work to do today, so instead of doing it like a good little girl, I’m going to procrastinate, talk about American Idol, and vent a little bit.  This is my blinking flashing warning–this post has no redeeming informational value.  Sorry.

First, a quick vent.  I’m stressing so hard over jobs/positions/fellowships for next year.  OBviously I want to get an outrageously amazing job with virtually no income as a paid writer in a fellowship, but those, despite being very low paying, are very competitive, and I’m hoping against hope, but I know I can’t plan on anything.  I just want to HEAR! Can’t they just give me a specific date to hear by? I remember one said “March”, but now looking back over websites I can’t see where I read that.  And the other is MAY!  MAY!!  I applied in December.  And I’m only getting worked up about it because I don’t have a real job either–one that, if I don’t get any of these, I can happily do for the next year or so.

Problematic.

::Sigh::

In other events, this is my first season EVER of watching American Idol.  A newbie!  And though there are some things I just don’t get about the show (why have them sing again after America decided we like them the LEAST?  And couldn’t you tell us who got the most votes?  Just for fun?) I find it very addicting.  Especially this whole, three nights a week, take over your life thing they have going on.  Very engrossing.   The judges are fine–Simon is harsh but fair, Kara is strangely fickle, Ellen is why I started watching it this season, and Randy is a ridiculous caricature that I have NO idea how he’s been on there so long.  Dog.

And I really empathize with the contestants.  As someone who is getting my first taste of Ohmygodthismightbeit’s, it’s like sucking in this hard breath and you’re trying so hard but you don’t know whether to be super confident or super tentative or just flat out pray on a daily basis.  Or all of the above.  Because you’re close, but you know how easy it is just to fall right off and start at the beginning.

But last night!  OMG, Lilly!  First of all, I never ever liked you.  You’re weird looking and when you sing a big note you look like a five year old trying to poop.

Come on, you know she does. And these people think she bears resemblance to a Princess Bride character, and not the one she hopes, I’m sure…

And then when she was kicked off, she looked at little Katie Stevens like “WHAT THE HELL?!?!” She did not believe she’d be voted off, and she didn’t take it very gracefully when she was. She was all, “I KNOW I have an audience. And fans. So what the hell?” (…not an exact quote).

Lilly, get over yourself. You may well have an audience (you have a good voice) but you’re not super commercial. I happen to really like commercial, and bubblegum pop and cheesy frothy goodness. That’s what I want. More than anything else, I want to see you be graceful and grateful, because I’m sure this is such crazy exposure for you that you’ll get picked up one way or the other.

And Lee Dewyze, I want you to win. Mostly because I want to hear your voice on the radio all day everyday.

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