What am I supposed to be doing right now?  I understand that to build your self identity, the path that you’re supposed to be on, you understandably need to go through a lot of things that aren’t right for you, and have faith in the meantime that this is all leading to the path that you’re meant to be on.  Rather, that I’m meant to be on.

And I do.  For whatever reason, I have a lot of faith that I’m on the right path.  I just feel like it’s high time I found an occupation I can be passionate about–a job I can work at for a length of time, because it is so frustrating.  I understand that everyone says–and I truly know–how lucky I am that I’ve found what I am over the moon passionate about, lovingly obsessed with, but it kind of makes everything else seem so drastically worse.  As soon as I realize that I can’t be passionate about something (like freelance writing) it’s torture until I’m out of it.  And I’m not joking–it’s literally torture.  Every inch of my mind and body and heart completely rebels.  I can’t see the point of working without a purpose, and more over, without a passion.

So since I don’t particularly want my mind and heart just yet, maybe my destiny will lead me to something that I can be passionate about and still make money from.

Here’s hoping, because I’m also pretty passionate about food, shelter, and health insurance.

xx

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